I was really looking forward to a long, relaxing Christmas holiday. Christmas 2019 was not emotional calm because of my breast cancer. But what happened Christmas 2020? I was diagnosed benign paroxysmal positional vertigo - BPPV. Why me and why now? Symptoms and diagnosis The vertigo struck me like lighting one morning. I should just… Continue reading Benign paroxysmal positional vertigo
I begin and end with hope. Born, we hope to live a long life. We haven’t a clue as to the concept of “not being” yet. It’s hard not to think about the concept of no longer breathing: rising to the sweet smell of ion charged air after a spring rain. The concept of seasons… Continue reading Hope Shifts: COVID19 to Cancer
Jeg trenger ikke å fortelle deg viktigheten av Pinktober, som er en påminnelse om å sjekke brystene dine, og vær så snill å gjøre det. Men hvis Pinktober er grunnen til at du undersøker brystet ditt minst en gang i året, er det bedre enn aldri, og jeg vil si at Pinktober har oppnådd noe.… Continue reading The importance of Pinktober
My previous post was pretty anxious and depressive. I wrote Trying to escape my cancer thoughts. To sum it up I was really shaken after Kate Preston`s death, and I spent most of my time running away from my feelings. I was grieving in a way even though I didn't know her. My walking was… Continue reading My super motivational Fitbit watch
I am very sad to day. I woke up this morning full of plans for the day. After scrolling the newspapers on the Internet I discovered that Kelly Preston is diseased after a two years struggle against breast cancer. I met my own fear with anxiety and I could not sit still. All my plans… Continue reading Trying to escape my cancer thoughts
To be honest, I have never felt so lonely before. I guess I can say I am so lonely as I can be. Especially after I got the cancer diagnose. I can't talk about cancer all the time, but my thoughts are stuck with this horrible word and disease. The Corona pandemic has not made… Continue reading Lonely as I can be
Recently, I was very fortunate to have been invited by Karin Sieger https://karinsieger.com/karin-sieger/ who is a BACP accredited and registered psychotherapist, writer and podcast host based in London, UK, to take part in her extremely popular ‘Cancer and You’ Podcasts as part of her ‘Cancer Voices’ series. In the first episode – Learning from others’… Continue reading ‘Cancer and You’ – Podcasts — #Drawing On Anxiety
In this very moment many people are fighting for their lives while I am living in a calm corner of the pandemic world, for now. Just 33 people among a population of approximately 50 000 have tested positive, and all 33 are declared healthy and out of isolation. No one in my town have died… Continue reading The Covid19 disease and cancer
My breast cancer treatment plan is not really settled. And why is that? The reason is caused by one tiny micro metastasis in one of seven sentinel nodes extirpated during my surgery, and not five as I may have mentioned in a previous post. I was operated BCT with sentinel node January 16 th. My… Continue reading My breast cancer treatment plan
I had my BCT and sentinel node surgery January 16. Personally I wanted a mastectomy, but the surgeon kind of hesitated. I was told that the surgeon preferred BCT ( breast conservative treatment) because if the cancer comes back, I will have a better chance to be in an early stage. Without a breast there… Continue reading My BCT and sentinel node surgery
Today I got the phone call from my surgeon and she confirmed the radiologist cancer suspicion. Do I have breast cancer? I would love to say happy new year, but instead it is a unhappy New year with breast cancer. Feelings My Christmas was destroyed after I felt a lump in my right breast… Continue reading Unhappy New year with breast cancer
Do I have breast cancer? Well, the radiologist seemed pretty sure, but I got to wait to January 2. before I know for certain. Then the team at the Breast diagnosis center will decide what kind og treatment I need. This waiting time is so very long. It feels like an eternity. I keep panicking… Continue reading Do I have breast cancer?
I have written about my chronic disease, ulcerative colitis. Ulcerative colitis and colonoscopy controls This disease combined with chronic stress and ADHD made me taste a burnout for several years. But you don't have to have a chronic disease to get a burnout condition. What ever caused your problems you are maybe asking yourself: I am… Continue reading Burnout- will you ever recover?
The society is going in the wrong direction. Each and everyone of us must work faster and more efficient. We are all running with blue flashing lights on our shoes like an emergency car. Having a good simultaneous capacity is in the long term not a good feature. I ended up with a overheated brain… Continue reading Should I feel any shame?
It is time to relax and when I do that I love to listen to nature sounds. I have found some weather recordings on Spotify, and use them every day. When I got sleeping problems or just needs to calm down I put on my noisecancelling headphones. Gone is the noise from the traffic and… Continue reading It is time to relax…..
I got ulcerative colitis and it was confirmed with colonoscopy i 2012. Personally I was rather old when I got the diagnose, but I was ill long before the bleeding diarrheas occur. In addition I had stomach pain, headaches, dizzy and fatigue. When the gastro specialist said «you got ulcerative colitis» he put me on… Continue reading Ulcerative colitis and colonoscopy controls
I read once an article on a Norwegian web site about how chronic stress can give us diseases. It was actually an interview of Rune Jonassen from 2014-12.25, a psychologist and scientist at the University of Oslo. What is normal stress response? Jonassen explains stress as the condition in which we experience demands exceeding or… Continue reading Chronic stress and diseases
After my son left home a couple of days ago https://wp.me/pb4jAC-bK I have really been in a vacuum condition and decided that enough was enough. So I looked through my chest where I store all of my yarn balls. In the bottom I found some yarn for macrame I had forgotten all about. Well why not?… Continue reading Is macrame a new hobby?
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